Hello from beautiful Colorado! I recently got to Palmer Lake, CO where I will be staying for a month while going through Mission Training International.

It was very hard for me to come to this training. Less than 24 hours after arriving back in Texas from being in Singapore for a month I got in my car and drove to Colorado. I like to think that I am a spontaneous, adventurous person, and sometimes I am, but going into this month of living in Colorado with 40 other strangers was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I kept telling myself, “You need to be happy! You love Colorado and you’re going to be here for a whole month! Just think about how difficult it’s going to be to move to another country in a few months. If you can’t handle this, then can you really handle the D.R.?” As I was driving to MTI, all of these thoughts were running rampant through my head. And then, by the grace of God, I decided to turn on my worship playlist.

You know how sometimes God gives you little nuggets of joy and comfort in hard situations? Well, He was definitely trying to tell me something when the first song that played when I hit shuffle was Called Me Higher. The lyrics of this song wrecked me. I literally drove to Palmer Lake with tears rolling down my cheeks. The song spoke to me like I’ve never experience before. It was exactly what I needed in that moment, and it has been comforting the entire week that I’ve been here.

God, you have called me higher. I could have stayed safe and never left my home in Texas. I could have never let my walls down by not pursuing this job with Makarios. I could have never let you change me and stayed the same Emily Martin that I was 4 years ago when I started college at Baylor. But you called me higher. You told me that you had more in store for me; that flying under the radar wasn’t going to cut it for my life. You spoke to me when I went on my first mission trip to the Dominican Republic and told me that one day, I would be back. You knew that I would end up interning for Makarios and then finally come on staff after graduating from Baylor. You knew that Makarios would help create the perfect role for me working with group ministry while also getting to do some things on the marketing and social media side of the organization.

I knew all these things because I had prayed through them before, but it took me breaking down and hearing this sweet song to remember why I’m here at MTI. Why I am giving up so many things to move to the DR. God doesn’t promise us a happy, easy life. He tells us that we will have tribulations and trials, but in spite of all that, we can still find joy and peace in the Lord. He never promised me that this journey would be easy. I know that it is going to be painful, devastating, uncomfortable, frustrating, incredible, exciting, challenging, and life-giving all at the same time.

After a week of being at MTI, I can already tell how hard it is going to be for me to move to the DR. However, the things that I am learning here and the relationships that I am building with people who are going through the EXACT same things that I am dealing with are all 100% worth the homesickness. I could never have fathomed the value of this month before coming here. I am so incredibly thankful for Makarios and the fact that they know how valuable this training is and that they send each and every staff member here before they move.

I am praying that throughout this month the Lord would continue to draw me nearer to Himself. I’m praying that I would continue to desperately need Him, whether that’s in support raising, homesickness, or with processing that in a few months my life is going to drastically change. I am also praying that the Lord would tug on your heart, on the hearts of my supporters and friends who read this blog post. That you would be challenged to live your life to the highest potential. That you would know what God has called you to do, and that you would do exactly that. I pray that the way I live my own life will be a light to others and will lead them to also live their lives in a way that glorifies the Lord.

Thank you so much for your prayers and for all of those who have reached out to me these past few days. It makes my day to see texts from friends and family after a long day of phonetics classes (they’re hard… trust me) and processing through emotions with my growth group. I am so thankful for each and every one of you and I hope that you will continue to follow me on this journey!

Called Me Higher (by All Sons & Daughters)

I could just sit
I could just sit and wait for all Your goodness
Hope to feel Your presence
And I could just stay
I could just stay right where I am and hope to feel You
Hope to feel something again
And I could hold on
I could hold on to who I am and never let You
Change me from the inside
And I could be safe, oh
I could be safe here in Your arms and never leave home
Never let these walls down
But You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord
You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You lead me Lord
Where You lead me
Where You lead me Lord
And I could hold on
I could hold on to who I am and never let You
Change me from the inside
And I could be safe, oh
I could be safe here in Your arms and never leave home
Never let these walls down
But You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord
You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You lead me Lord
Where You lead me
And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life
And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life
And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life
So let Your mercy
Oh, and I will be Yours, Lord
And I will be Yours for all my life
So let Your mercy light the path before me
‘Cause You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord
‘Cause You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord
Oh, ’cause You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord
Oh, ’cause You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord, where You lead me
Where You lead me Lord
Where You lead me
Where You lead me Lord

 

 

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